Hello again.
2 and a half years later.
Things have changed a lot, and many new things happened, good, bad, and undefinable.
The "love" I said I confessed in the ....15th?...rant, I have concluded that this might not be love after all. I still don't know how love feels like, and I don't think of trying to know anymore. It bothered me too much and too long. Let my try no more.
Being nice and supportive to you makes me feel content. This is enough. For now, at least.
In other news, I am currently a university student. College life is fine, I guess. Troubles of all sorts bombard me from all possible directions, almost constantly. But hey, life isn't a fluffy wonderland of sweets. It's natural to struggle. To survive is not to just be alive.
Speaking of troubles, I think I have got a glimpse of what it means to work. It's a world full of people pretending to be professionals, with very few actual professionals and even fewer ideal individuals. There are a whole lot of those who aren't really capable, then there are those who can work well, but are also machines installed with ill-will. Of course, there are those who will help you, even if they aren't actually any good. But there are also those who will help just some people, and will give no chance to others. The world of grown-ups is filled with various kinds of people, and you must never forget that you too are part of those people. Make yourself a good one.
I've been learning, and forgetting, a lot of stuff. I always think I sacrificed English for Chinese. I think I was way better at English back then. I think I didn't have to pause every now and then to think of appropriate words to use like this. It's frustrating to know that you were better, you could do better in the past, but you can't do well like you did. You used to know, but now you don't.
I almost stop playing AQW completely by now. Studying abroad at Beijing forced me to abandon AQW via horrible internet access to the game's server. I tried Trove and Transformice, which were both nice but unfortunately not so suitable to play in my homeland. The ridiculous reason was my computer would overheat and there was no cool weather to calm it down. i went back to Aura Kingdom, Eden Eternal and even Luna Online, but they all were left behind brutally when Maple Story finally reopened in my country.
Maple Story is my favorite game. It is the game I love the most ever since I was a kid. I wear eyeglasses because I was addicted to it. I started getting myself revolved around games because of it. Although the game I learned many things from the most was AQW (I started learning English outside classrooms from it and it also helped a lot in practicing patience and determination.), now that I am back to the Maple world I missed, I get to look at this game I love from a slightly grown up point of view. I don't just play around anymore. I play, think why it is fun, how can it be improved, and what I am learning from it. At the very least, and most obviously, I continue to practice my determination and patience through games. Seriously, the jumping mini games of Maple are downright horrifying.
I've come so far but it looks like I'm actually back to where things were. We move on but that doesn't mean our life has to change entirely into something else, losing its original, or current, shape and form. There is also a possibility that things once gone will come back to you. I walk on a path I walked before and never walked before. Can I take a path I didn't take? No, this is not a second chance. This is a continuing road that never leads backward, No matter how things seem, the way is laid forward.
Let's continue.
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